“Success with
Honor.” “The Grand Experiment.” For as long as I can remember these two
statements have been synonymous with the Penn State family and with many that
follow college athletics closely. To those that are not familiar with these
statements, Joe Paterno created these beliefs when he started coaching 46 years
ago. His idea was that you could have a student athlete that succeeded both on
and off the field, one of upstanding character, and one that met certain high
academic standards. JoePa showed the
college football world that this was possible over those 46 years, and we the
Penn State Community believed every bit of it.
For the better part of my life I have believed in these statements, I
have believed that JoePa was above all things, and that JoePa was God-like. Joe
has been looked on by the sporting community as the one person that has done
things right. Heck, Penn State is one of TWO NCAA Division 1 programs (Stanford
being the other) that has never, and I mean NEVER been investigated by the NCAA
for major violations of the NCAA bylaws for college athletics. JoePa created that image by demanding
excellence from his players on and off the field and preaching it to all that
wear the Blue and White. I had tears in
my eyes when JoePa passed Paul “Bear” Bryant on the win record. Same when he
hit win #400 last season. I have always
felt that JoePa is Penn State. However,
with one short sighted decision, all that Joe built was gone.
This past
weekend has been arguably the most trying time that the Penn State Community
has ever had to deal with. I myself, a die-hard Penn Stater, am still
struggling with the acceptance of the news that broke this past Friday evening
about former coach Jerry Sandusky and then blew up on Saturday with the
cover-up scandal. Today I find myself
struggling to feel the way I used to about my Alma Matter. Today I find myself
saddened by the actions of not only Jerry Sandusky, but also those in power at
Penn State, those that failed to do the right thing. Today I question what else
JoePa and company lied about and hid over the years. Today I question my
loyalty to the University that I grew up loving, attended, and graduated from.
My heart goes
out to the victims of this monster that was allowed to walk around free and
clear for 10+ years. Those victims will
live with memories that they will never be able to escape, no matter how hard
they try. The fact that most, if not
all, of the victims were “at risk kids” being helped by what truly is a
fantastic organization, The Second Mile, makes it even harder to accept. These kids were sent by their parents to an
organization that they believed would help mold their children into fine
upstanding citizens. They were to be taught life lessons about what is right
and what is wrong. And they were sent to
one place that is SUPPOSED to be safe, a University setting. How are we, as parents, supposed to trust
anyone if you can’t trust the staff at a major University? This may be the part that rubs people the
wrong way, I know it does me.
I first found
out about the investigation of Jerry Sandusky earlier this year through Penn
State fan sites and forums. As quickly
as the word broke that he was being investigated by a grand jury on allegations
of sexual conduct with minors, the news was hushed. At that time, my initial reaction was to think
that, “well this will be ugly, but it will blow over quickly.” Never in a million years did I expect that
once the grand jury convened that several high ranking Penn State officials
would be charged with perjury and failure to report a sex crime. Never did I expect that possibly the biggest
cover-up in the history of college athletics would be unveiled, especially when
it involved Penn State.
Because of
this, I am left with so many questions about a place that I love, a place that
I worship. Saturday night I wrote an
email to the Board of Trustees demanding the resignation of President Grahm
Spanier, Athletic Director Tim Curley, Vice President of Finance Charles
Shultz, and Joe Paterno. These were the
men that failed to do what needed to be done. Yes, Joe did what he legally needed to do by
the letter of the law in reporting the allegations to his superior Tim
Curley. But he could have done more and
he should have done more. One thing to
keep in mind is that we do not know what the GA told Paterno. There are differing theories on the
description Joe was given and this is crucial to how we judge JoePa. If the description was merely “I think I saw
Sandusky naked in the shower with a young boy” then it is hard to say JoePa did
the wrong thing by merely reporting the matter to his superior, Tim
Curley. Now if he was told the specifics
outlined in the grand jury report then Joe deserves to be judged harshly. I can only hope that in the upcoming months
more light will be shed onto what happened. Maybe Joe did pursue this and was shut out by
his superiors or told it was taken care of? Is it likely? Especially knowing that JoePa
runs the University, I don’t know. One
thing I do know is that Joe was not protecting a “buddy” because he and
Sandusky had not gotten along for years, and that is a known fact. I do not believe that Joe was part of the
“cover-up” directly. I think Joe's failure was in not doing more than he did. Morally JoePa should have made sure the
police showed up and investigated this incident immediately.
Ask any of my
friends or family and they will tell you that I am a loyalist to the extreme.
Yes, I wanted JoePa to retire about 10 years ago already and yes I hoped that
this season was truly it for Joe (which as a side note I really think it was
regardless of the current situation).
Everything was set up for a great end of a career. His contract was up at the seasons end, he
turns 85, he has the all-time win record for Division 1 football, PSU has a
great chance at the first ever Big Ten Championship game and a great New Year’s
Day Bowl Game. JoePa has done it
all. But now? Now, that incredible career is tarnished with
a stench that will never go away only because JoePa appears to have chosen to
do the bare minimum. Maybe I am wrong
about JoePa. Maybe people won’t judge
him as harshly after we learn more about what happened. Honestly, I hope that is the case. It would be really sad to see everything that
JoePa built at Penn State be labeled with an asterisks.
One major
issue I have with the Penn State administration is that Sandusky continued to maintain
an office on campus after the 2002 incident despite all the smoke around
him. Not only that, but he continued to
bring children on campus despite being told not to. Another thing to note is that Penn State
officials did alert the Second Mile about these allegations and they also chose
to do nothing. They are just as guilty
as Penn State on this and no one seems
to be evening mentioning that.
This upcoming
Saturday I will travel to Penn State for the last home game of the season
versus Nebraska. This was a game that I
was looking forward to prior to this past weekend. The mood of the game has already been
dampened, but I will go to support the student athletes on the field,
especially those playing their last game in the Blue and White. I won’t lie though; it will be very hard to
mutter up the courage to sing the words of our Alma Matter though, especially
the last two veruses:
“When we stood at childhood's gate,
Shapeless in the hands of fate,
Thou didst mold us, dear old State,
Dear old State, dear old State.
May no act of ours bring shame
To one heart that loves thy name,
May our lives but swell thy fame,
Dear old State, dear old State. “
Those words
just don’t feel the same today as they did last week. I know they say that time heals all
wounds. For myself, and for other Penn
Staters, we will survive. We will unite as one as we always have and always
will. For the victims of Jerry Sandusky,
I can only hope that somehow their wounds are healed sooner rather than later.
I know it is a stretch, but I can hope and pray that once justice is served
that those victims can gain some relief in knowing the punishment was dealt. I do hope that one day people will look at
Penn State with respect like they did before.
The Penn State I know is not what is being drug through the mud right
now. The Penn State I know is a proud institution with a proud fan base that
does things the right way. I hope that
people will realize that when we say “We Are Penn State” that the “We” is not
the individuals that failed to stop a monster.
The Penn State community is a very strong community and will remain
strong despite the dark days we have ahead.
Yay for Chris for guest posting. Too bad that the whole situation happened though.
ReplyDelete