I had found it harder and harder to write recently because so much of my life was not able to be discussed in a public way. But as of today, that can all change! (Sure, I'll use this as an excuse why I haven't posted Robby's 20-month post, even though that has nothing to do with anything)
The short version is that I had been job hunting. More things were seeming promising, and then one came out of absolutely nowhere, I got an offer, it's been accepted, I've tendered my resignation, and woah. It's all happened very fast. I'm excited for this new opportunity for growth, and that it's going to be a challenge, but honestly? I'm also having some difficulty coping with a HUGE thing that is looming in the near future. In two weeks I will start my training. In New York City. By myself. For the next month.
I have never left Robby for more than 24 hours. Just saying that makes tears start to well up in my eyes. I honestly am not sure how I'm going to stay professional while so far away from my little man. I'm going to have to, but OH will it be hard not to break down every time I think of him. About a hundred times a day. I get to come home on weekends, but it's still a lot. I'm so scared that he'll no longer be my cuddly little momma's boy when I get back. That he'll some how have moved on, or will resent me, or...gosh, I don't know. I doubt I'll MISS anything huge (though, I hope that potty training continues to improve while I'm gone. Hmm hmm). But I do fear what it will do to our relationship. I know, he's 1 1/2. He'll be fine. But...I don't know if I will be. And, I don't know if Chris will be. Being a single parent for the next month will be rough!
When I get back, we're going to be putting our house on the market, and moving. Where? I don't know. But our current house is an hour commute each way. I'll be doing it for awhile, but it's not a long term solution. More questions yet to be answered.
Anyway, there's where I've been. And some of where I'm going. And maybe I'll post a bit more in the future.